On Change

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As many of you know, my beautiful gram became an angel in January. I know I have not been in touch with some of you, and I had every intention to change this blog over and get up and running. But life happens. Aside from having to come home for a short few days here and there, this is the first time I’ll be home without gram being here for more than a weekend. As many of you also know, we got lucky enough to have her live with at our house from the time my brother was born until her last breaths.

Change, hmmm. How would I describe change? It’s all around us. Its here on my new website, it’s there. It comes at good times and bad times. I remember when my senior year of basketball ended. The thing about change is that when it’s bad, all you hear is “it’s going to be okay” and if it’s good, you hear “change is good.” But to a girl who just spent the last 6 years devoting her life to a ball, a team and a basket; its not. To the guy who just lost his bestfriend to a “wrong place, wrong time”; its not. To the two who just spent their last couple years chasing each other and never letting go; change is good for them, yes, but change is not good for them. I’m currently in Java’s spending my afternoon. {A note about Javas- it’s a place for any feeling. Instead of being uptight that this place has become so mainstream in the past year, I would love to share it with you. 16 Gibbs Street, Rochester} I was taking a picture of course…

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And I looked behind me. Read the quote. It’s about Change.

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“If you realise that all things change, There is nothing you will try to hold on to. If you aren’t afraid of dying, there is nothing you can’t achieve. Trying to control the future is like trying to take the Master Carpenter’s place. When you handle the Master Carpenter’s tools, changes are that you’ll cut your hand.”

SO Gram, I know you’re all around me. Mommy and Daddy bought me a necklace the other day that means “Just Be.” Even at this time, things are falling into place.

 

To be sad is to be the same person in a alternate element. Unless you let it change you. I’ve seen breakups change people in the same way that death changes people, and the point is to minimize neither. When people say that “different people deal with death differently,” replace the word death with any issue. It could be a good thing to. Success? Some want to flaunt it, some want to keep moving. It is hard to gauge what goes on in one’s mind unless you know them inside and out. I find it hard to believe the statement your other says “I know you better than you know yourself” because you are truly the only human that knows your limits as a human.

This morning was something not out of the ordinary, but sad came out. The house is so quiet without you, Gram. It is hard to walk into your house and say goodnight knowing I can’t hug you and ask how you are doing. But I see the quote on the mirror behind me Gram, and I know that all things change but I can’t realize it. I will always hold on to you.

IMG_7165.JPGThe metaphor of an ocean can be used here. The ocean’s patterns themselves are never in touch with changing. The flooding and the rejoining the waves do each and every second everywhere around the world represents each human’s will to continue with their everyday routine. But here and there, the sky changes. Water is clear, yet very reflective. The sky represents life as a whole, not day to day. When life gets gray, so do we. Our routines change, and our problems get bigger. They rise up around us, but the thing we can never forget is that the sky is always blue somewhere, and unless youre in Washington State, the sky will get blue. You may have to wait a season. You might have to change locations. You might need to go to a tanning bed. But the sky changing shows us that change is good. Change provides lessons on how to cope. How to keep the ocean flowing everyday and never losing sight of life as we see it.

To come to terms with change is to accept yourself in the circumstance. The thing that gets us all about Change is we feel obligated to accept it. Take college for example- we see others around us adjusting so easily and we feel the obligation to join it.

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Cheers, Gram.

Change is inevitable. Whatever you’re going through is going to pass.

“It’s funny how things change” –> not a funny statement.

Next time you go to tweet this, let’s be real, its probably not that funny. You’re in a different element and that’s OKAY.

Remember that there is always someone there, and take it from me as someone who pushes people away but still looks for someone to be there for her, I’m a firm believer on team work. My 11 o’clock sadness just turned into 2 oclock, now 4:30. I’ve sat here in Java’s at the window seat for 4 hours now, and there is so much to see. I have such a great deal of respect for where we are from and I enjoy every single human that has walked by me. Sometimes a day well spent is spent alone, with a hot chocolate, and a laptop.

Please keep up with my blogs, feel free to click around, and email me at rissablogs@yahoo.com if you have questions or would like to share something. Yes, I would love to take your picture and write about it. Enjoy this, I’m happy to be back. Change is… alright.

 

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